Another month gone by. I did do a lot of things I am proud of and I am slowly making incremental changes, BUT I am also still falling into the same traps of being stuck in the planning and dreaming stage, trying to do too much and cutting out “hard” things when I am stressed (spending more time scrolling and on YouTube watching hateful videos instead of reading, working on learning, my hobbies, focusing on my health and spiritual practice - and using my free time stupidly then makes me more stressed out and feel worse!).
Focuses for May: Digital Detox, Detox, Re-center on holistic health, DO - TIGHTEN THE NUT, live in the moment, plan day by day, take a systems approach, did I mention just do? CREATE THE HABITS YOU WANT, think in terms of you are creating your future self NOW, with the actions you chose NOW, gratitude, learning to let go - surrender to the human experience, learn from what you cannot change, listen to what is happening and respond instead of react, HEALING MY NERVOUS SYSTEM - getting parasympathetic. Remembering, I respect and love myself, SO I consistently make the best choices for my mind, body, and soul. CREATING, BECOMING - not ideating and fantasizing about fame and validation and recognition, but just focusing on true learning, cultivating curiosity and building skill sets, doing projects, becoming a fucking DOPE person PERIOD not carefully curating a “personal brand” that can then be monetized. Practice breathing, walking - back to the basics, the fundamentals, the EARTH — seeing beauty and wisdom in everything. Practicing radical honestly and self-awareness, striving to live intentionally and aligned each and every day. Always be open, curious, simple, excited, in love, at peace, content - sitting in fron of the window and relishing in the feeling of the breeze against my skin, the birds songs, the green trees - STOP YOUR OWN BULLSHIT, YOU CHOSE YOUR PATH, YOU CREATE YOUR OWN UNIQUE STORY AND EXPERIENCE. THIS ONE HUMAN EXPERIENCE IS UNIQUELY YOURS - OWN IT. Being prepared for anything - in mind, body, and spirit - cultivating strength and holistic health in the holy trinity - embodying and realizing my strength, stepping into my power, my womanhood, my pull, my sexiness. Being the multi-modal, hybrid athlete. Being in nature and in the gym, a iron maiden and hippie, embracing duality and exposing false dichotomies. Discovering, creating, deciding who I am and who I want to be - what this one precious life will look and feel like.
THIS IS MAY.