[{"content":"","date":"12 April 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Blogs","type":"blog"},{"content":"Documenting some helpful weeds I have found in our yard this spring! The world is full of wonder if you take time to get to know it.\nFeb/March:\nSorrel (creeping woodsorrel, pink woodsorrel)\nDandelion, by late March/April it has gone to seed\nHenbit, by late March it is gone\nDeadnettle, by late March/April it is gone\nCleavers, by late March/April it has gone to seed\nWild Geranium (Caroline Cranes Bill)\nRibwort Plantain\nHairy Bittercress\nSpiny Sowthistle\nCanada Lettuce\nWhite Clover\nCommon Fleabane\nGarlic Chives\nWild Garlic\n","date":"12 April 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/early-spring-wildlings-backyard-spring-foraging/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Early Spring Wildlings + Backyard Spring Foraging","type":"blog"},{"content":"Dubious about seedlings. Read through some of the pros and cons of using plastic wrap to increase humidity. Sounds like most things. Trial and error, nailing the fundamentals (right level of moisture, air, water) and good enough over perfection.\nWatered the early chaos bed and dubious of that one too.\nI hope I get at least one little baby sprout!\n","date":"9 February 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/maple-hill-feb-9th-2026/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Maple Hill: Feb 9th, 2026","type":"blog"},{"content":"Today was my first gardening day of the year! As usual, it took longer than I thought, but hopefully we will get some greens out of it!\nWashed and cleaned plastic seedling containers\nStarted seeds with leftover seed packets from last year, tried using topsoil I got for free at the TN Local Food Summit, but was dubious it would work well due to the big pieces of mulch in the mix, so we went to Ace and got a peat moss potting soil mix. While we were there, we took a picture of the back of Ferry-Morse seed starter kit instructions. This is what I followed last year and it worked!\nSeeds we started to go indoors: bok choy, hot pepper, red cabbage, some herbs\u0026hellip;\nWe also went ahead and started an early spring chaos garden bed with evergreen bunching onion, gladstone onion, micro greens mild mix, german chamomile, and garden chives. hopefully this bed takes some of this!\nWent ahead and seeded a few pots of \u0026rsquo;true catnip\u0026rsquo;; hopefully ours grows as big as Emilys!\nPer usual, I wish I had taken better notes last year that I could reference now\u0026hellip;but we keep moving forward! Have to remember, this is a learning journey.\nTomorrow\u0026rsquo;s To-Do:\nTransplant red maples to front yard\nMove sheds and screw down a board to the bottom of them; organize outdoor equipment\nOrder some willow starts/cuttings\nBuy seed potatoes\nFinish transplanting trees, bushes, canes, and crowns\nDirect sow hardy roots (carrots, beets), peas, spinach, fava beans, asian greens, and swiss chard\nhttps://www.epicgardening.com/february-gardening-tasks/ - prune perennials we do have and clean up the leaf litter I put on the beds, should I just leave the beds exposed? clean, sharpen, and organize garden tools / outdoor tools, schedule mosquito dunk bucket day,\n","date":"8 February 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/maple-hill-feb-8th-2026/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Maple Hill: Feb 8th 2026","type":"blog"},{"content":"the free trees are thriving, all of the mulch was likely a mistake. it really does make it so much harder to mow/take care of weeds. squash bugs are EVERYWHERE. put out some DE, but need to do some neem oil and keep a close eye on it, frustrated with myself that I let it get that bad\u0026hellip;saw the squash and cucumbers dying and did nothing about it - well, did not realize how bad it can get, but wow they were everywhere. I mowed and I cleaned up the side of yard next to the driveway, where I want to install a permaculture swale like thing - I need to plan for that, research for it and make my selections and soon. but I like doing more than the learning. I struggle to learn new things, but I can just do. something I am trying to get better at\u0026hellip; it is a lot of work to manage the small bit of land we do have. I cannot imagine a lot more. start with plants and places, setting up ecology and a life we like and then add dependents.\n","date":"24 August 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/red-maple-hill-24-aug-2025/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"red maple hill: 24 aug 2025","type":"blog"},{"content":"in the garden:\nHarvested the garlic, most of them look pretty good, but they are small. most of decent shoulders. on one I peeled the outer layer so it is clean, but the others were not allowing that, so I knocked off as much dirt as I could and will wash them after they are done curing. To cure, I braided them and hung them from the attic string, a fan is blowing directly on them and the dehumidifier is nearby.\nPut up the shed we got from Tyler, is a welcome addition. The box we were using as a makeshift shed is the current residence of a paper wasp. Apparently, they are beneficial, so we will just position him away from the house.\nMade an arch way out of existing materials! Pretty excited about this one. I am going to try and grow something climbing on it - and maybe add a roof addition.\nDid some weeding, mowing, and weed whacking. I need to plant some bush beans in the grow bucket and wild flowers in two other beds. A raccoon keeps shitting in the one bed and that is super fucking annoying - set up a barricade, but I am sure it will just shit in the other one.\nin life:\nI need to get a journal again - this is not the same as writing ","date":"1 June 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/weekend-report/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"weekend report","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/dailyprompt/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Dailyprompt","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/dailyprompt-1953/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Dailyprompt-1953","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Tags","type":"tags"},{"content":"I can find myself in the fediverse, any urge to share anything lives on a place I own - that\u0026rsquo;s modular, that I can self-host.\n","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/this-is-my-socials-now/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"This is my socials now!","type":"blog"},{"content":"What a fitting writing prompt for me! My list grows by the day. Started working any cash jobs I could find in middle school and have continued to work since then. Babysitting, waitress, fast food, frozen yogurt, office jobs, gym jobs, white collar work, back to a gym job and now teaching. I cannot do white collar and I do not love customer service jobs. Kids or bust or give me a task to complete.\n","date":"29 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/what-jobs-have-i-had/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"What jobs have I had?","type":"blog"},{"content":"25% done with 2025 - that is wild. I do feel like I have done a lot this year, yet there is always more to do.\nJanuary: Started back at work post-holidays and immediately had a sinking feeling in my stomach - I knew I could not do it anymore. I t was time, and so I quit. Last day was January 31st - the original plan came back. Man I am proud I quit THD. The timing was write, the universe approves.\nFebruary: Started as a part-time employee at full steam. Master Gardener. ERUG. Really diving into trying to figure out who I am and the life I am building, a life I want to live.\nMarch and April: A spring blur full of coaching, teaching, volunteering, yard work - discovering more of what I want my life to look like. Overall, I feel very positively about this year - I took a huge step in creating the person, the life I want to be in. I feel more aligned, more centered, and more excited for the future (despite all the turmoil of the present). I am excited to see what the rest of the year brings - to know all my hard work and saving since a young age had paid off - has culminated and allowed for this season of discovery. My precious life is mine again.\n","date":"1 May 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/first-four-done-may-day-is-here/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"First four done, May Day is here","type":"blog"},{"content":"https://www.foodasaverb.com/post/farmers-speak-tariffs-bird-flu-funding-cuts-and-what-we-can-do\nTLDR: There is a lot of tutored artist energy with farmers that I am not a fan of. The conversation continues to be on how we can support local farmers, but that is wrong. The conversation should be on how can we support ourselves. How can the everyday person reclaim their power and food sovereignty. The food system should be 1) home/neighborhood/community grown food/foraged/crafted 2) local (city) 3) local (state) 4) bulk source commodity items. We should be more focused on a paradigm shift, building a new (micro and hyperlocalized) food system.\nWe need more conversations on how to grow food, how to forage, how to bulk buy, save, how to ferment, what we should be eating and growing! How to forage, how to sustain ourselves and our neighbors - NOT on how to shift our dependency from big ag to, for now, smaller, local ag. Dependency is dependency.\n","date":"30 March 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/i-am-not-interested-in-what-they-are-selling-30-mar-25/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"I am not interested in what they are selling (30 Mar 25)","type":"blog"},{"content":"Re-post from one of my favorite blogs, Root Simple. Some slight changes to fit the times.\n“Man was born free, and he is everywhere in chains.”\n– Jean-Jacques Rousseau, The Social Contract\nWhat follows will be a practical guide to urban homesteading. In our troubled times, it would seem prudent to have a “plan B” in the event our modern conveniences should temporarily cease. Besides, by learning to “DIY”, you’ll cease to be part of the fat, pathetic, SUV driving, “American Idol” obsessed zombie hordes that plague our once independent nation (not sure we, the people, were really ever independent). Now, We’re not some gun-toting libertarian nut-jobs and the tips we suggest will always be in the spirit of neighborly cooperation. They’ll be no holing up in bunkers here waiting for some imagined Armageddon. Rather, we’ll be casting aside the dependence we all seem to have developed in our fragile (hello trump-elon, technocracy), modern world. Now let’s get started.\n","date":"20 March 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/a-declaration-of-independence-20-mar-2025/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"A Declaration of Independence           (20 Mar 2025)","type":"blog"},{"content":"It was so chaotic, ended with me quitting I did it.\n","date":"11 February 2025","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/january-25-recap/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"January 25 Recap","type":"blog"},{"content":"trying to make my first sourdough loaf, used a recipe that required too much starter, so halved the ingredients, but I used too much starter to take out. will learn from it. https://www.feastingathome.com/sourdough-bread/ \u0026ndash; the recipe I am halving\nhopefully did not ruin starter, need to find a good sourdough recipe and rhythm for 2 people and do most prep in night, bake in AM\n","date":"12 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/homestead-diaries/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Homestead diaries (11 December 2024)","type":"blog"},{"content":"Speed round! T-5 minutes until screen time stoppage (bad word, but no time to think of a better one).\nPublic libraries are awesome: Shadowed sewing 101. Does Fediverse instagram have a mobile app?: YES, but not for Apple, and their beta is full. UGH.\nOk, I had more links, but times up. See you tomorrow!\n","date":"5 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/todays-links-04-december-2024/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Today's links (04 December 2024)","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/anti-big-tech/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Anti-Big-Tech","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/anti-consumerism/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Anti-Consumerism","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/browser/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Browser","type":"tags"},{"content":"What\u0026rsquo;s the difference between a browser and a search engine?\nAlt Browsers (not Chromium based, most known ones are) - which ones are not based on chromium? (oh there you are Firefox)\nAlt Search Engines - which ones are not based on a google search index?\nWhat I think is bullshit: Ecosia; they plant trees with a PORTION of ad revenue, but is fishy to me\u0026hellip;they also encourage the use of AI which is dog shit for the environment and plus constant ads on the internet perpetuate consumerism and modern imperialism and are the true roots of environmental degradation. Ecosia is throwing glitter on shit.\nWhat I am excited for: Ladybird, Orion/Kagi combo\nOther links: these are what inspired me to add this to today\u0026rsquo;s links\nhttps://www.404media.co/friendship-ended-with-google-now-kagi-is-my-best-friend/\nhttps://doctorow.medium.com/https-pluralistic-net-2024-04-04-teach-me-how-to-shruggie-kagi-caaa88c221f2\nhttps://www.searchenginemap.com/\nhttps://www.reddit.com/r/degoogle/comments/12r8i5g/whats_a_good_google_search_engine_alternative/\n","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/fuck-google-better-browsers-and-search-engines/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Fuck google - better browsers and search engines","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/fuck-google/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Fuck-Google","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/google/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Google","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/kagi/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Kagi","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/search-engine/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Search-Engine","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/technology/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Technology","type":"tags"},{"content":"Model blogs: What I aspire to create.\nFTC is the best part of government (for now): I will desperately miss Lina Khan and do not understand how people are so brainwashed that they think she has bad for consumers.\nFuck google: There are better search engines and browsers.\nEarthling in training: unlearning, re-imagining \u0026amp; sharing tools for collective liberation \u0026amp; a just world\nSidenote: As it turns out, formatting and creating a wordpress site is not as easy as I thought\u0026hellip;another new and exciting thing for me to work on! For now, just focused on writing, creating, doing.\n","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/todays-links/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Today's links","type":"blog"},{"content":"Do not lose faith: I enjoyed reading this and this and founding this news outlet.\nThat is all for today! Learning to trust myself\u0026hellip;in ALL things.\n","date":"3 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/todays-links-03-december-2024/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Today's links (03 December 2024)","type":"blog"},{"content":" pluralistic.net\nrootsimple.com\ndanah.org\nThe above three blogs are inspirations. As are the people behind them. They are true doers, community and thought leaders, activists; all around polymaths. They respect privacy, live their values, and embrace simplicty.\nBoth Corey (pluralistic) and Erik (half of rootsimple) write in the form of daily/weekly linkages and in true admirer fashion I will be copying that format. Some days it my be linkages to things I found interesting, others my own writing. Either way, I think it will keep my honest with my evening pages and rekindle the writing flame.\n","date":"2 December 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/model-blogs-what-i-aspire-to/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"model blogs: what I aspire to","type":"blog"},{"content":"today was a rainy day so not many things were done. inside we tidied and finished some projects (hanging mirror and shelf in our bedroom). one thing I did do outside was start to combat the fruit flies in our compost\u0026hellip;I had chucked a watermelon in there and they started to swarm. some things I learned help fight against / prevent fruit flies in compost:\nkeep a top cover of straw/newspaper/dry leaves (they do not like that) and put food scraps (what they like) under that layer\nadd more carbon (I added straw)\nplace a fruit fly trap nearby (I need to do this! I can put a t-post in the ground and hang a fly catcher from it)\nthings I hope to get done tomorrow:\n- start sourdough\n- chip drop order\n- cement block order\n- continue painting barrels and MAYBE install 2\n","date":"20 November 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/11-19-on-the-homestead/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"11.19 on the homestead","type":"blog"},{"content":"I rather be doing a video, but that seems hard to do. Curating curiosity is the project of our life, my life, similar to what DC is doing with memento mori\u0026hellip;what are my values and how do I seize every day to the best of my ability. Curiosity Farms is the large driving force within this project of life, frame of reference and guiding compass of how to live life - be a creator, not a consumer.\nSo curiosity farms is the biggest element of CC and it is our urban, modern homestead. right now is fall and we are preparing the land for a busy spring season. What have we done so far?\nhad kerry out and planned out the homestead\ngotten the soil tested\nsigned up for chip drop and wood chipped future garden bed sites\nrelocated the fire pit\ngot barrels for rain barrel system\nThis week my aim is to install the rain barrel system and order things to create the garden beds. We are also putting in a security system and rounding out my \u0026ldquo;emergency preparedness\u0026rdquo; to-dos - mostly just stocking up on staples and creating for ourselves.\nI wish I would have made a video right after doing the wood chips\u0026hellip;I had a lot of insights there that I should have documented, but that is okay. I am doing. And I am having grace and patience with myself as I learn how to do.\nNot much for weekend linkages\u0026hellip;spent the whole weekend working.\nTill next time.\n","date":"3 November 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/week-review-weekend-linkages/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"week review // weekend linkages","type":"blog"},{"content":"didn\u0026rsquo;t do much at work today, workout was not what I wanted it to be. I feel like I take too long with everything and know nothing\u0026hellip; constantly feel inferior to Michael.\nself-reliant / ceo of home / homestead journey: did some money chores, and typical daily chores. hell bent on fixing the smell in our home and our laundry and making sure our home is (and feels like) a safe environment for the both of us. ordered some highly recommended laundry products and washed whites in bleach. I don\u0026rsquo;t love it, but using the band-aids and quick fixes to get us to a place where we are ok and safe and then can go about it the right way. in you are drowning you need a life raft, not swim lessons.\noverall, i feel like I am constantly trying and failing. until tomorrow.\n","date":"9 July 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/7-8-blog-post/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"7/8 blog post","type":"blog"},{"content":"Do you know that you do not have to post about your life? You do not need a personal brand or unifying blog, you do not need a business plan to execute things or a perfect date to start posting again - you can just do what you want when you want, nothing more is needed. In fact, nothing is needed at all. Yes, you have this great idea of \u0026lsquo;curating curiosity\u0026rsquo; as a project and mantra for life. And I do believe it is great. But you trying to over plan and over organize LIVING is preventing you from doing that such thing. What you need is less connection, less planning, less branding, less day dreaming, less scrolling and comparing and more small doings. Nothing big. Just pick one thing and allow that one thing to lead to the next thing. You do not need to decide everything and you do not need to have everything mapped out, just go, just do, just be who you are. Yes your life\u0026rsquo;s mission is \u0026lsquo;curating curiosity\u0026rsquo; and a facet is that is creating a self-reliant urban home\u0026rsquo;stead\u0026rsquo; that reflects all those values - curiosity farms, a place that fosters creativity, creation, production of plants and people, a place where we can learn to live with nature, to create something we can be proud of and be an example for our community and create a community of our own. A place that connects us with what it means to be human again - we have forgotten a lot of what it means to be human; and we need to find that again. What is my life\u0026rsquo;s purpose? To learn, to grow, to become the most me and best me that I can\u0026hellip; connect with mind, body, and spirit with myself and the world, to reach cessation and share that with others.\nWhy do I feel the NEED to share everything right now? There are a lot of theories and I am not very sure, but I feel called by Spirit, etc.. I should not be sharing everything, or anything!. It is not good for me right now - can share periodically but more about learning, growing, connecting and becoming who I am meant to be\u0026hellip;.creating what I want to and am meant to create. THEN, maybe someday I share and give back. Maybe someday this blog will be public, maybe not. And that is okay, I do not need to figure all of that out now, or ever. I just need to live\u0026hellip; to LIVE, to create and yes to document, but to document for me, for us. Through analog, through scrapbooks. Photos, writing, memories, video cameras, how it used to be.\nI stand for permaculture, low tech, real skills, warrior in a garden, specialization is for insects, robust/diverse skill set, self-reliance, harmony w/ nature, harmony with others, community, communion with spirit, simplicity, thoughtfulness, integrity, human scale economics, radical home economics, low waste, right to repair, human birth rights of health and happiness - knowing how to keep oneself alive and do so not to just survive, but to thrive, a philosopher who DOES, true knowledge is knowledge in action, in practice, family, people are everything, the human spirit is strong, death to cars, urbanism, locality, know your neighbors, know yourself, learn from nature - let it teach you. Let life be living.\nFinding my inspiration in people like this \u0026mdash; Root Simple is about back to basics, DIY living, encompassing homegrown vegetables, chickens, herbs, hooch, bicycles, cultural alchemy, and common sense. We’re always learning, figuring stuff out, taking advantage of the enormous smarts of our friends and our on-line community, and trying to give some of that back in turn. Root Simple is a gathering place for everyone. Welcome.\n","date":"18 May 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/do-you-know/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Do you know?","type":"blog"},{"content":"So much time passes between me writing on here. I am not sure why I allow this. But I do. A winning combination of overthinking and poor prioritization. DC\u0026rsquo;s visit has re-invigorated my passion to create, create something outside of myself that will have an impact and outlast me. Going into May, an exciting month, the gateway to summer which inspires movement, openness, growth, etc.. Who am I? What our my goals? What is my anchor? What do I want to know, to create, to own?\nI am a thoughtful, powerful woman. I believe that our primary purpose in life is to achieve that which we are born with, cessation - ultimate peace and presence in the moment. A more secondary purpose is creation, to create something larger than one self, that touches fellow humans, ideally for the better, and has a life span longer than you.\nPursuits - creating communities united on curiosity, thoughtful living, and freedom.\n- For Money: freelance\n- For Passion/Purpose: Curiosity Farms - suburban self-sufficiency experiment. stop outsourcing and starve the system. get curious, curiosity is a path, the path to true freedom, then cessation, which is our purpose. humans are meant to do it all, to be informed, to be part of the world, to be jack of all trades.\n“A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.”\n-Passion Project: In tandem w/ curiosity farms, curating curiosity - approaching my human experience with genuine curiosity. curiosity is a pre-requisite to freedom.\n- A FAMILY - I want a family. I am not sure if that means a few animals or some human children. But I have a desire to nurture and feel it is part of our charge is to bring worth creation, a existential calling, an unending cycle of life that each is compelled to participate in.\nAll of this requires a lot more DOING than I currently have been. A lot more time skill building and re-framing what is work vs. leisure. We have become so conditioned that anything challenging is work and not pleasure that we think the only true pleasure we have access to is when we do nothing\u0026hellip;when we are passively consuming the work of others. To live a life I want to live that has to change.\nThinking about being a parent, a mom. What type of person would I want to be more my children? Someone who skips workouts and makes excuses? Or someone who makes a plan and sticks to it? Who explores the middle ground and gray with someone, who moves through life with curiosity and intentionality? Who KNOWs things and HOW to do things! Who feels empowered and beautiful and teaches them to do the same. As I am navigating this life altering question, it is time to start farming all experiences and actions as if I do have children - what does that change? Does it change things for the better or worse?\n","date":"29 April 2024","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/4-3-24/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"4/3/24","type":"blog"},{"content":"Need to pick one thing. Cannot do it all (at the same time). Rugby is not making me feel good, yeet it/deprioritize it. Pick something you are naturally good at let it RIP. CF EVERY DAY - AM = CREATING = LIFT + SKILL + ROM + CARDIO // PM = EXPRESSING / SPORT = CF, RUBY, CLASSES, CONNECTION, FUN.\nSIMPLE FUCKING SOLUTION. Just start waking up earlier and actually MOVING.\n","date":"3 November 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/11-3/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"11/3","type":"blog"},{"content":"Been about 6 months since my last post? Let me go read it real quick. Yep, last post on here was from the last day of MAY and now we are in the 2nd day of November and in about 3 weeks I will have crossed the terrifying threshold of being closer to 30 than 20. In that May post I talked about struggling with the same things I feel like I have since leaving HS and entering \u0026ldquo;adult hood\u0026rdquo;. Do I feel like I have made much progress on any of these items? Not really? In most ways still feel very stagnant, very stuck. Why am I still running in the same circle? Because I overthink, lack confidence, do not commit, jump from big thing to big thing, jump into outsourcing and developing a fully fledged plan instead of just fucking DOING IT. Brain has been tainted by social media and trying to build out my personality and accomplishments instead of doing shit, getting good at shit and then compiling an aesthetic way to look at that and make it make sense. Need to DO. And take things one step at a time. I keep looking for the one day that changed everything, the one inflexion point, but, in reality, I do not think that day ever really occurs for most people. Sustainable change is usually slow. Maybe even painfully so. But it is one step. Then another. Then another. Wins and accomplishments slowly building up on top of one another. So, my goal for the rest of the year is to stop fucking having goals. Stop saying \u0026ldquo;this is it\u0026rdquo;, \u0026ldquo;this is the big change, the full send summer, the all out October, whatever\u0026rdquo; - just taking things day by day. Trying to slowly get better - just learning and fucking GOING FOR IT.\nHere is the post for (my) reference: So, here it is, the last day of the month and now we are full send into summer. Still struggling with the same things I have struggled with since college: having a schedule, a persona, a clear identity, a cohesive life, connection, and community. I am really hoping that the new job helps clear some of these things up. And once I have the hang of that role, looking to diversify self w/ Erin as my mentor - start training, freelancing, having a \u0026ldquo;learn to live\u0026rdquo;, \u0026ldquo;curating curiosity\u0026rdquo;, \u0026ldquo;homegrown nugget\u0026rdquo; persona that I take into the world to live and connect.\n","date":"2 November 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/half-a-year-later/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Half a Year Later...","type":"blog"},{"content":"I love you Snugglet. Also, my credit card is due in 2 days.\nSo, here it is, the last day of the month and now we are full send into summer. Still struggling with the same things I have struggled with since college: having a schedule, a persona, a clear identity, a cohesive life, connection, and community. I am really hoping that the new job helps clear some of these things up. And once I have the hang of that role, looking to diversify self w/ Erin as my mentor - start training, freelancing, having a \u0026ldquo;learn to live\u0026rdquo;, \u0026ldquo;curating curiosity\u0026rdquo;, \u0026ldquo;homegrown nugget\u0026rdquo; persona that I take into the world to live and connect.\n","date":"31 May 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/5-31/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"5/31","type":"blog"},{"content":"training not great today, still bad at jerking and super sore\u0026hellip;again, planned out way TOO much. start w/ achievable goals, in fact EASY goals, make them habits and then add from there. Need to start w/ just double sessions and carving out time and routinue even if short.\n","date":"30 May 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/5-30-23/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"5/30/23","type":"blog"},{"content":"So, May is coming to a close and I have not done much blogging - again, too high of expectations and still too much focus on the validation, the external recognition, the potential for greatness\u0026hellip;I need to shift into a love of doing, a love of learning, creating, curiosity - just a love and living and truly being and embodying everything that I belive in. I am still on the path, making breakthroughs no matter how small, it takes a long time to erase and undo 20+ years of practice, neural pathways and conditioning, but I CAN DO IT. I can live a meaningful, fulfilling, aligned, present coherent life, one that I take pride in, one where I embrace each day with open arms.\nToday was hard, mostly because of the lack of structure. Need a schedule and structure to feel better, develop grit, make most of my time and build confidence in myself. This week is the last week before my new job, a good opportunity to finish outstanding to-dos in personal life and around the house, study material, organize tech, and generally catch-up and get a head start on onboarding.\nWith the end of May and the beginning of summer, I am starting a summer shred.\nTRAINING \u0026amp; NUTRITION GOALS:\nGive 100% to Rambo programming\nGive 100% to ROM\nDAILY prehab/flow/CARS\n3+ cardio sessions / wk\n3+ accessories/BB /wk\n3+ skill sessions /wk\n1-2 WODs /wk\n1-2 nature excursions / new skills (roller skating, trampoline park, ninja course, etc.) / wk\nSo for nutrition, obviously still focused on holistic health (skin, sleep, stress, dental, stomach are the main factors we are tracking and monitoring); want to sit at closer to 135-140lbs but get there through a commitment to eating whole foods and prioritizing holistic health NOT just macros and performance. However, with all this training will need to dial in macros and meal timing, probably time to add in creatine and some other supplementation as well.\nTraining for Today: Michael and I did a 2 mile walk and the park. I Hanging \u0026amp; Rotation did all of Rambo workout 100% and then went on about a 25min cool down walk. Eating and hydration was pretty good today\u0026hellip;could be more and better (electrolytes during lifting) hydrated and likely needed a bit more carbs today. Still working on recovering good gut disposition, been off for a minute do to lack of sleep and stress.\nTraining for Tomorrow: AM to ROM+Rambo at Crunch (if time add in a cardio and BB sessions). At lunch, get in daily flow and walk. PM go to CF.\nWell, that\u0026rsquo;s that for today. Not sure what the structure will be for these but thinking I will just brain dump in mornings and nights and try to publish a recap of the day every night\u0026hellip;\n","date":"29 May 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/coming-to-a-close-5-29/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"coming to a close...5/29","type":"blog"},{"content":"So, been inconsistent on here -why? Because I set an unrealistic goal for myself\u0026hellip;what\u0026rsquo;s new?! But still learning and growing. So new and more realistic expectation is every sunday as I am doing my weekly self-care, inventory, and reset for start of a new week to compose a post that will be review of previous week, included learnings, events, trainings - any \u0026ldquo;read and record\u0026rdquo; notes - and look towards the next week. It will ask question like how do I feel, how did I do, am I on track, what did I learn and what can I ACTION on and implement this week. Something akin to Brandon\u0026rsquo;s newsletter which I really like and I think is a great practice.\n","date":"14 May 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/learning-to-live-2nd-week-of-may/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"Learning to Live - 2nd Week of May","type":"blog"},{"content":"Another month gone by. I did do a lot of things I am proud of and I am slowly making incremental changes, BUT I am also still falling into the same traps of being stuck in the planning and dreaming stage, trying to do too much and cutting out \u0026ldquo;hard\u0026rdquo; things when I am stressed (spending more time scrolling and on YouTube watching hateful videos instead of reading, working on learning, my hobbies, focusing on my health and spiritual practice - and using my free time stupidly then makes me more stressed out and feel worse!).\nFocuses for May: Digital Detox, Detox, Re-center on holistic health, DO - TIGHTEN THE NUT, live in the moment, plan day by day, take a systems approach, did I mention just do? CREATE THE HABITS YOU WANT, think in terms of you are creating your future self NOW, with the actions you chose NOW, gratitude, learning to let go - surrender to the human experience, learn from what you cannot change, listen to what is happening and respond instead of react, HEALING MY NERVOUS SYSTEM - getting parasympathetic. Remembering, I respect and love myself, SO I consistently make the best choices for my mind, body, and soul. CREATING, BECOMING - not ideating and fantasizing about fame and validation and recognition, but just focusing on true learning, cultivating curiosity and building skill sets, doing projects, becoming a fucking DOPE person PERIOD not carefully curating a \u0026ldquo;personal brand\u0026rdquo; that can then be monetized. Practice breathing, walking - back to the basics, the fundamentals, the EARTH \u0026mdash; seeing beauty and wisdom in everything. Practicing radical honestly and self-awareness, striving to live intentionally and aligned each and every day. Always be open, curious, simple, excited, in love, at peace, content - sitting in fron of the window and relishing in the feeling of the breeze against my skin, the birds songs, the green trees - STOP YOUR OWN BULLSHIT, YOU CHOSE YOUR PATH, YOU CREATE YOUR OWN UNIQUE STORY AND EXPERIENCE. THIS ONE HUMAN EXPERIENCE IS UNIQUELY YOURS - OWN IT. Being prepared for anything - in mind, body, and spirit - cultivating strength and holistic health in the holy trinity - embodying and realizing my strength, stepping into my power, my womanhood, my pull, my sexiness. Being the multi-modal, hybrid athlete. Being in nature and in the gym, a iron maiden and hippie, embracing duality and exposing false dichotomies. Discovering, creating, deciding who I am and who I want to be - what this one precious life will look and feel like.\nTHIS IS MAY.\n","date":"30 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/another-one-bites-the-dust/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"another one bites the dust","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"17 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/brain-dump/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Brain-Dump","type":"tags"},{"content":"Well, it has been awhile from the initial posts for several reasons. 1) this computer is a nightmare 2) i have gotten re-addicted to youtube 3) change and doing hard things are hard. I made this blog private because I really just need to get into the habit of creation and want to do that and create myself feeling un-judged, with no potential audience or critics to worry about.\nHave been thinking about the business I want to start - I think \u0026lsquo;Curating Curiosity\u0026rsquo; does perfectly capture how I now try to approach holistic health - curious about human experience, the limits and heights, curious about far my mind, body and soul can go and what I can do with it and I would like to guide others in their own exploratory journeys. I listened to a great podcast today about how triggers are teachers (from Em Dunc\u0026rsquo;s podcast). I think this re frame, thinking about every reaction as a chance to learn, learning to pause, breathe and replace initial reactions w/ curiosity is a life changer. SOoo maybe I keep the name and tagline, but use this to start a business? But I keep falling into the trap of looking at the finish line, over planning, and thinking in terms of future self (\u0026ldquo;I will be this and that\u0026rdquo;) instead of keeping focus on present and what I should be doing now to CREATE myself. Cause that\u0026rsquo;s the thing - the best content is actually knowing shit, actually having skills, a story, confidence, being fucking real and authentic so THAT\u0026rsquo;S what I need to focus on - creating me, building skills, habit, and routines, DOING, living out my values, practicing and applying learning and philosophies, curating a life I want and am proud of. AND THEN, maybe, just maybe I share some with the world.\nOther updates from last post: 75 hard does not actually align with goals, instead focusing on creating a more sustainable and fluid routine, building good habits and qualities so I am the person that naturally is inclined to do certain things. I have been SHIT with digital detox goals, but that is something that is deeply important to me. Also, want to get more serious about a real detox - continue to heal body. Still on my holistic health journey, now more than every - thinking about womanhood, femininity, and motherhood - really craving deep knowing of myself and cycles, wanting to get off hormonal birth control and continue down road of holistic health and healing.\nRereading \u0026lsquo;Crucial Conversations\u0026rsquo; and it is amazing. It is what really started the journey of self discovery and healing I am on now and it is great. The first premise is \u0026lsquo;Start with the Heart\u0026rsquo; which I need to do more of. Start with me because that is the only person I can change! And so, we are still in season of snugglet, but continuing to learn, relearn, try, and fail but most importantly never giving up and slowly inching to more clarity and an elevated baseline.\nWell that was terribly written and unhinged, but feels good to materialize thoughts and just do something to get me back to this goal.\n","date":"17 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/hello-again/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"hello again","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"17 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/unhinged/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Unhinged","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/75-hard/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"75-Hard","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/atomic-habits/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Atomic-Habits","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Categories","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/curating-me/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Curating-Me","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/curiosity/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Curiosity","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/digital-detox/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Digital-Detox","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/digital-minimalism/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Digital-Minimalism","type":"tags"},{"content":"Welcome to my blog, Curating Curiosity. In an attempt to just start, this first post will likely be a spew of word vomit. But, it is finally something (please bear with me, as I get back into consistently writing, I hope the quality will improve).\nI grew up loving writing, arguing, learning, and just thinking, but I never really found the one thing I could confidently call mine. I have moved through life as a generalist, someone who bounces from one thing to the next, possessing a mediocre to slightly above average skill set and knowledge base for a multitude of things. I used to think this was a weakness, a character flaw (and sometimes still do), but more and more I realize the power and beauty in this. I am embracing my curiousness. Loving all things and moving through vastly different seasons has taught me to see the unity in complexity, the forest through the trees.\nI am afraid a lot of the world is backing away from complexity, instead retreating into silo\u0026rsquo;d echo chambers that shelter from the grey, the nuanced, the messy middle that dominates our human experience. These spaces erase the intricate web and replace it with palatable brands, predictable opinions, and an endless scroll of sameness. I crave the grey, it allows for questions, it begs for questions. I crave seeing the breadth and diversity of humanity - a burly lifter who happens to love crocheting or the polite, small blonde woman whose weekend hobby is monster trucks. Unfortunately, more and more people are defining themselves singularly, \u0026ldquo;I am a Republican, Christian, Lesbian, Vegan, \\[insert label / narrowly defined identity here\\]\u0026rdquo;. This pigeon holing is stifling curiosity. Without curiosity, we lose connection, awe, exploration, growth, and change. Without curiosity, we miss out on the best parts of being human.\nI have begun to peruse other blogs and the thing I love the most is the authenticity and uniqueness they exude. SO many people loving and writing about anything and everything - from their pet chicken to God\u0026rsquo;s existence. They are people rejecting narrow identities and demonstrating continuous learning and curiosity in their own lives. I want to be a part of this camp. The camp that 1) spends their time wisely by cultivating invaluable skills (writing, storytelling, introspection) 2) is wildly curious about everything, with no limits. I want to be fiercely aware of myself and the world around me.\n\u0026ldquo;Why?\u0026rdquo; is just the spring board. From there we dive into deepening our understanding of ourselves and the world around us. No subject is too small nor too holy to be questioned. Why is a powerful spell, when cast it can reveal false beliefs, buried pain, and redirect the course of life. This blog is me evoking my magic, staying curious, and being open to where that takes me.\n","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/first-is-the-worst/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"first is the worst!","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/first-post/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"First-Post","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/goal-setting/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Goal-Setting","type":"tags"},{"content":"Spring is the real and right new year. So, documenting my intentions as we enter this vibrant season of new energy and transformation.\nWords for the year are aligned and intentional. I want to go to sleep every night knowing that I was intentional with my time and live in a way that honored my core values, aligned with my virtues and what I hold important.\nHere are 3 actionable pillars that I will be focusing on to support my goals of alignment and intentional living.\n75 Hard - To reach my higher, embodied self I need to build grit and discipline, and also build confidence and trust with myself. While arguably extreme, I think that successfully completing this challenge will be foundational for building intentionality and alignment.\nDigital Detox / Digital Minimalism - Removing the crap passive consumption and reclaiming leisure and hard work. Less is more, energy breeds energy, but you have to get started. (book summary and review on Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport coming soon).\n\u0026ldquo;Tighten the Nut\u0026rdquo; - Act now to create future self, see the magic in the mundane and build atomic habits. Every moment is an opportunity to cast votes for who you want to be, act accordingly (book summary and review on Atom Habits by James Clear also in the works).\nMy goal is to write at least one post a day (likely more an update on my own journey, mind musings from the week) and one piece a week (this is a more formal and vetted piece of writing, an op-ed article, book review, etc.).\n","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/happy-new-year/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"happy new year!","type":"blog"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/new-year/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"New-Year","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/not-good/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Not-Good","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/only-up-from-here/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Only-Up-From-Here","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"2 April 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/spring/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Spring","type":"tags"},{"content":"Hello! Welcome to Curating Curiosity, my personal blog about everything. Here I will explore broad concepts like unity of knowledge and the interconnectedness of life; as well as the small, mundane moments that comprise my own journey.\nThis is a place where \u0026ldquo;Why?\u0026rdquo; is welcome. One of my core virtues is living with a spirit of unadulterated curiosity. When we get curious, we open ourselves up to awe, connection, understanding, and presence.\nNow, let\u0026rsquo;s curate curiosity together.\nCurrently not on social media, but please leave a comment saying hi. I love meeting new people and hearing their stories.\nUNDER CONSTRUCTION: Project CC, polymath partners building a renaissance life. Curiosity Farms - an urban homestead and home of project CC. Both are an expression of my core values and mission in life - live a meaningful life that is thoughtful and aligned w/ guiding principles, to give future generations something tangible and impactful - skills, mindset, a way to live.\nThe birthright of every living thing is health.\n","date":"30 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/","section":"About","summary":"","title":"About","type":"page"},{"content":"","date":"30 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/journey-of-me/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Journey-of-Me","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"30 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/seasonal-living/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Seasonal-Living","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"30 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/self-develop/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Self-Develop","type":"tags"},{"content":"the liminal stretch of march is ending and we are about to experience the real new year\u0026rsquo;s day.\n","date":"30 March 2023","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/blog/posts/the-real-new-year/","section":"Blogs","summary":"","title":"the real new year","type":"blog"},{"content":"","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/authors/","section":"Authors","summary":"","title":"Authors","type":"authors"},{"content":"","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/series/","section":"Series","summary":"","title":"Series","type":"series"}]